Knowing What You Want

I've had a revelation recently regarding what you think you want, and how that can change over time. For years, I've thought that I had a specific desire that seemed as if it weren't going to happen, something that is not entirely in my control, something that for years I have dearly wished for. But in the past week, I believed it was finally happening. And I realized that I was pretty sure I didn't want it any more...I had not examined my desire in quite some time, and as it turns out, I think I have moved past it. It isn't that I didn't want it simply because it was happening - not a case of always wanting the unattainable. It is that I used to want it with my whole heart, but that my life has changed and I am now in a place where I am more content with whatever happens. I have spent so long wanting this particular event that it became more a habit than a true desire. I am so surprised by this turn of events - I would never have predicted it, even a week ago. And it has given me such a measure of peace - as if I can let this go - if it happens, fabulous, and if it doesn't happen, also fabulous. What a blessing.